I’m so excited for the season finale of Ugly Betty!! One thing that bugged me is, why should they include Lindsay Lohan?? Oh no, I hate her.. I just wish she won’t ruin Ugly Betty!!

Let me tell you, I’m a huge Henry-Betty shipper, but, after this week’s episode (The Kids Are Alright), whoaa..

Gio was charming in that episode. He was cool when he said,”I don’t want to be the rebound guy. I want to be the guy.”

I can’t wait to watch the finale, since Betty has to make a choice between Henry or Gio. I already saw the promo and sneak peeks. Whoaaa!! Another Betty-Gio kiss!! And… HENRY PROPOSES!!!

This is going to be a tough decision for Betty.

In one side, I really wish Betty will be with Henry, but (as Claire Meade said to Betty) their relationship are going nowhere. I mean, Henry already got a son from Charlie!!!

But Henry-Betty are just so CUTE and INNOCENT!!!

In other side, I think for now if Betty picked Gio, it won’t be fair for him as well. He’ll DEFINITELY be the rebound guy.

Hmm… from what I saw, I think there’s 3 possibilities:

1. Betty picked Gio and decline Henry’s proposal.. (that means… no more Christopher Gorham for season 3!! NOOOOO!!!)

2. Betty picked Henry, and got engaged with him. Then, in season 3, it’s either Betty got worn out by problems with Henry (it’s easy to get problems… since Henry is going back and forth from Tucson to NY, he got a son now in Tucson), starts longing for Gio, and Betty broke up with Henry to have a go with Gio.

3. Betty didn’t pick both of them, Henry went back to Tucson (another chance of losing Christopher Gorham… NOOOOO!!!) and Gio still fights for Betty (in my opinion, he’s not giving up things easily, including Betty), then along in season 3, whether Gio and Betty get together, or there’s going to be a new guy in Betty’s life.

Arrgghh…!! Seriously, I still want to watch Christopher Gorham in Ugly Betty, and watch Henry-Betty being together… It’s just so ironic… They don’t have chances to be together long enough…

I guess right now I’m a bit not in the mood for love..

Even though I have feelings for someone.

But still…..

Is it because he is out of reach? I’m still trying to figure it out…

I am kinda scared of feeling something for another person..

I mean, I don’t want to try replacing him with someone else anymore like last time…  It won’t end up well..

I’m scared that I won’t be able to let go my feelings towards him…

Oh, if only I have a magic lamp… Then I can have wishes..

I really, really wish I can be with him.. But well, I have to live in the reality, right?

I just hope that, someday I can let this feeling go, and find someone else that I can fall madly in love with, just like I fell for him…

Oh well, I have to stop ranting about him..

There’re some songs right now that I particularly like and I kinda think those songs suit my feeling for him.. Although not all really, really match it exactly..

I’m now officially panic and stressed about my assignment.

This assignment worth 20% for my passing grade!! Basically, it’s all about prejudice, discrimination, and stereotype.

Yep, I’m studying psychology.

Don’t get me wrong, I love my major. Even though I can pick one more time for my major, I’ll definitely take psychology again.

The lessons are fun and interesting.. It’s like learning about facts that happens everyday in our lives. But the thing is, the assignments are not much, but they value really high…

Personally, I prefer many assignments with lower value than few assignments with big value..

If the value is not big, I can fix things up when I screwed up my assignment with the other ones…

Well, no gain, no pain..

There’s an old saying about this. They say, “A cake is not sweet enough if there’s no flavour of bitter in it.”

Well…. I guess I’ll just grin and bear it…

Stay tuned for another posts from me!

See, I’ve got a crush on someone since year 10. He’s not the most popular boy, he’s just one of those most known people in high school. He’s not that good in grades, he’s just ordinary. He’s really friendly.

My high school is co-ed. In my country, we don’t walk around school for lessons. We stay in one classroom for the whole year. The teachers are the one who walked around to our classroom. In those 3 years, he is always in the same class with me.

In those times, I never went more than just having a secret crush for him. Only a few of my really, really close friends knew about this. I only went as far as stealing glances of him. I never really talked to him (since he is one of the “popular” kids).

When I graduated, I’m still in love with him as much as ever.

Before I study overseas, I have 7 months holiday period because my country’s school system is different. At those holiday period, I was more active than ever in my theatre group (I’ll tell you more about my theatre group in another post). Then, I get really close to a boy in my group. He was actually my senior in my high school.

I sort of trying to bury my feeling for my crush by being close to this boy. I felt that my interests are matched by this boy, and I thought I started to forget my high school crush. But then, his flirts and teases sometimes annoys me. Well, we text and chat a lot, but then… deep within me, I kept thinking, what if he is not the one that was close to me? What if it was my high school crush?

I kept wishing for it.

Then, when the attraction seemed to pass, something hit me. I never really got over my secret crush. Instead, it’s just buried deep for a while, but it keeps burning. And somehow, I kept comparing him to my secret crush.

When I lost contact from this boy for about 2 weeks, I felt relieved, and I feel that I can freely all by myself. Suddenly, this boy text me again. I decided not to reply anymore, I’ll just cut off any contact with him (which is kinda extreme). Then, the next day (or the next 2 days, I forgot), he called me. Suddenly, he knows all my mobile phone’s numbers, even my home phone’s number!

I was really scared, and felt a bit guilty. Because, I know that I don’t have the right to use him to forget my secret crush.

After 2 weeks feeling scared,(and some events happened), this boy text me and said he won’t contact me anymore.

I felt relieved, and…….. guilty.

But then, I can’t choose who I love……

Now, I keep counting, how long I haven’t seen my secret crush…

Then, a few days ago, my friend convinced me to chat with my secret crush (yep, I added his msn to my contact list. Silly, huh?).

I jokingly told her that I’ll chat with him if he is online.

Then when I see my list…

Uh-oh. He IS online.

Well, what’s already been said cannot be taken back.

I text simple things, asking him how he’ve been doing.

But, RIGHT AFTER I press enter, he changed his status to away.

I really, really freaked out (literally!!).

I felt I’m losing hope and I said to my friend that he’s not gonna reply.

But after an hour or so, when I was about to sign out, HE REPLIED!!!!

If it’s not in the middle of the night, I’ll definitely scream of delight.

We sort of chatted about where and what we are studying.

That night, I can’t stop grinning. Even the next day when I woke up, the first thing that I do is smiling. That day, I can’t keep my grin off of my face.

Even my housemate thought that something happened to me.

Oh… Even though I know that he’s out of reach, but this happiness that’s still inside of me keeps me smiling.

Even though it’s been about 4 years (yep, going to 5 years), I can still feel love for him as though I just fell in love yesterday.

Which make me kinda scared… what if I can’t love another person?

Even though right now I felt a bit attracted to someone else, I’m kinda afraid that I’m just trying to forget my secret crush (again?)…

So, how can love be this long?

Well, at least there’s something new that I know…

Happy is just a simple feeling, yet it brightens your days..

I never, ever expected that I’ll fell in love with knitting.

Never. Not even in a thousand years.

But when I saw my housemate doing all the knitting stuff… I was just so curious and started learning it from my cousin.

Then, when I was chatting with my mom (I’m currently studying overseas; this is another way to keep in touch with her, aside from texting messages, phone calls.. some of my friends thought that my mom is really hip and cool-because she is able to chat with me! Haha), she was all about telling me how good it is to train one’s patience.

Well…. it is time consuming. Not that I’m complaining about it. But I HATE IT when I loose a stitch and realized it after a few rows!! I mean, how clumsy is that?

But then, I’m not that patient. So, maybe it’s a good training for me?

Oh, and here, it started to be cold…

I really CAN’T WAIT to go home this semester break! (Told ya-I’m not that patient!)

Which is….. in the middle of June?

Oh well, I guess I can wait for 1 annd a half month…